dam. HECTIC DAY. woke up pretty early to get to skoo. but then got tooo lazy to get up. so i was late again to skoo. called up alice. knowing that my phone wouldnt work!. but it worked!. i was happy fo a sec. then me and alice was like. i dun feel like goin to skoo 2day. so we cutted 2nd. called up annie n em. dey came down. den all of a sudden after 2nd. emily called up annie n told her that THESE PPL WANNA BEAT. " BONNIE AND HER GROUP DOWN". dat got me worried . i mean i gots enough stuff in my life alreadiie. now i gottah deal wit dis shit. den i thought it was this one filipino girl . but then turns out it wasnt her. i was hella trippin off of that shit thos. cuz she came up to me yestaday. and yea. got up in my face. so we all thought i was finnah go up against her. so then we juss met up wit nick aaron n em. at sugarbowl. and juss kicked it durr. until tammy came. got caught. we was like fuk. dang. wat a bad day. well. i was sayin that. then we went bak to skoo. to meet up wit emily. den caught the bus. and went to this park. near park presidio. 4got wat it was called. juss sat there. talkin listenin to music. i was singing. cuz i was bored as fuk!! haha. then omg!. it started to fukin rain!. i was like. "CAN DIS DAY GET NE WORSE?".. yeupps. DEN we went bak to skoo for DETENTION. cuz yea. we didnt have to do nething till next week cuz it was rainin. YAYUH!!. and then we went to the GENERAL HOSPITAL!!. THE OLD WUN. THE SUPPOSIVELY HAUNTED ONE!!. lol. n i've seen him after skoo. thinkin like. dam. ugh. but still care for him. lots. thinkin to myself. y does he talk to all my frends except fo me??. then got off to the hospital!!.HAHA. HELLA SCARY!! I WAS HELLA SCARY TO THE POINT I WAS HOLDING ALICES HAND!!. LMAO. den we went. and almost went in. but we ran bak out. cuz supposively we heard noises!!.i was HELLA SCARED. CUZ I SWEAR. ME EMILY AND ALICE. SEEN SUMMIN THROUGH THE WINDOWS. i dunno if its juss us. or we realliie seen summin. o wells. then later on . ANNIE GOT A CALL FROM TAIFEI. and he said that these girls is at LINCOLN PARK. finnah fight us or summin. then found out . dey finnah fight ANNIE. dang . i was like. huh?. wat she do? n yea. then they postponed da fight till FRIDAY. SO YA. WENT HOME EARLIE TO GO GET MY REPORT CARD. BUT TURNED OUT. IT WASNT THERE. HAHA. wat a day. didnt even go to skoo at all.

wells errywun. recap on my life ryte nows. i havent wrote in this thing in hella long. thats bcuz i've been too lazy and caught up in things. wells have you ever had them days where times juss arent so good for ya?  well dis has been them times i've been goin through.. ROUGH TIMES IN LIFE. wells ima juss let it all outs. cuz i cant keep it inside nomore. WELL.... eversince u left my life. its nvr been the same. to be honest. i still think of you. reminise on times we shared and crap like that. never once i stopped lovin ya. never in my life thought our relationship was gonna end. i've finally realized wat i've been missin. YOU. but sometimes in life. things dont go the way you want it to. its never fair. and you never realliie get wat you want. times i've spent thinkin of how we could of been if we never separated . but i kno we went our separate ways. met new ppl. i've kno i've met alot of em. but none of em are the same. nuins compare to you. for the past few days. my life juss changed in many ways. i've met new ppl. tried to get over you SO MUCH by juss meeting new ppl. it has worked a few times. but yakno. everyday when i get home. i think . dam wat did i do wrong. yakno. its juss that feeling that will never go away. i mean like. i've been tryin my best to juss move on. but i have yakno. juss that the feelin wit you will never fade. i've got so much things runnin through my mind ryte nows. i dunno wat to do. i juss wanna get away. away wheer i cant think bout nething.. where no thoughts juss run through ur mind. i mean like. if your reading this. YOU KNO WHO YOU ARE. i kno you still care for me. and i hope ur readin this. cuz i gots ta tell ya. i've spent times in my life where i juss sat down wit my frends and juss talked. talked bout our lives. and i would sometimes juss break down. cuz my life aint so perfect. it mite seem like it is. but deep down inside. its hurting. hurting from all the bullshit going on in my life. juss waiting for all this stuff to go away. and wait for the good times to come bak.  i kno how ppl say . i gots to keep my head up . and juss smile. but its hard yakno. if you were in my position ryte nows. you wouldnt realliie kno how to deal wit this bullshit either. I JUSS CANT TAKE IT NEMORE. i juss want everything to be ok. everything of me and you to go away. cuz if it remains in my mind. it hurts me. and now. my phone is broken. i dunno wat to do now. no1 to talk to wit my problems. but at least theres a good thing. IM GETTIN A NEW WUN. HAHA.   then i met this person that i thought we would BE also. we spent many good times together. we had it all. well not realliie. lol.. neways. well i realliie cared for this person. n he never realliie understood that.sleepovers, clubs, and drinks. been through it all wit this person. i sorta realliie cared for him. but now were juss frends now. . and hes goin through rough times too.and its ok. cuz im goin through it toohs.  AND then i met this otha person. had me feelin him.  but then realizing there we were never finnah BE. dat sorta made me sad. but yakno. i kno i've said i was ok. i was sorta hurt yakno. i mean like it had me sorta thinkin. WHY. y did you ever say HI to me. i dunno why im trippin but its sorta hard to have feelings fo summ1 and then have to let it all go. i've realized us havin that convo the other day. will change the frendship we had. and that makes me sad yakno. cuz it wont ever be the same as it was.i juss feel sad cuz were not gonna talk the way we used to talk . it was like we were good frends yakno?. it sorta hurts tuh see a good frendship go down the toilet.  but its not me. but hopefully we'll be good frends tho. ur gonna miss out. missed out on the chance wit me. juss hopefully u'll kno wat ur gonna lose. i dont blame you thos. no hard feelings. juss that i dunnno.  and some other bullshit meng. some lilass boys and girls be sayin hella stupid shit. dat makin me get into deep shit. i dunno ryte nows. life is juss sooooo COMPLICATED for me ryte at this moment. getting bad grades. not hardly going to class. its hard yakno. to keep up. well as ppl say. you juss gottah move on. keep yo head up. and SMILE. hide my feelings inside. and juss live life to the fullest. but sometimes. when you say that. its hard to do yakno.

                                            "Don't Let Them"

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

Some say that I am a fool to love you
And some say that I'm to dumb to know whats right for me
But only I can live my life, and only I can fill my heart ache
I never claim to know know everything but I know when your loves away
I can't sleep and I can't eat and I can't live and I can't breathe
So don't make a fool of me, just love me

Now they say that me loving you will hurt me
And they say its a matter of time before you break my heart
But even when were far apart I always feel that you are with me
I hope and pray almost everyday that our love never goes away
Cuz I can't see where I would be without your love all over me
So don't make a fool of me just me and say
Baby your all, all that I need, need in my life, right here with me